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Monday, 25 January 2010

  • Out of Left Field

    I went from a traveling gypsy to a settled adventurer (is that possible? HA). I gained a husband and lost my father this past year. I quit a corporate type job to start a new one as a nanny. I moved from renting to buying a home. And went from being a full figured woman trying to lose my newlywed weight to hello! I’m pregnant and there’s a beautiful baby growing and showing its presence in my life. I’ve gone from being a social butterfly (in a sense) to finding a solid, close circle of friends that I hold dear as my community. It’s been intense and full.

    This year has been one of the happiest years of my life, despite the hardships that have come out of it. Bitter and sweet have been walking me down this street of life. There have been moments that I’ve cried like never before, searched my heart and soul to find what really laid there- to know what God and I really wanted, laughed like I had lost my mind and giggled like a mischievous school girl. The transitions haven’t come easy, change doesn’t for me, but I have loved living life to its fullest.

    WOW.

    When Jer and I were dating and I found the reality hitting me that finally he had come, after all these years. I remember thinking he came out of left field. He was completely unexpected in so many ways. How little I knew that most everything following our marriage in 09’ would come out of left field- joys and sorrows.

    What would I have done without the arms of God holding me close? What would I have done without the arms of my left field love holding me dear? What would I have done without my beloved community supporting us as we walked through it all? Who the junk knows ….

    I find myself grateful for all that has come out of left field. My heart is full, expectant, happy and thoughtful. http://www.youtube.com/v/bnVUHWCynig&hl=en_US&fs=1

Tuesday, 19 January 2010

Thursday, 17 December 2009

  • I had this dream...

    i love adventures....one of my favorite things about moving so much was the adventure of it all...the thrill and newness of it all...the beauty of change.

    i had a dream the other night that I was single and about to move to another state again...i felt the thrill of the adventure stir through me and my heart rise at the possibilities...then i woke up, rolled over and bumped my pregnant belly into my husband....HA!....I'm sooo not single or on the move for quite some time.

    the dream got me to thinking though...about life....about my past...about my present....and where we want to go with our lives....about this beautiful little one that i carry...the prayers i whisper to God over my baby...

    i'm not where i thought i would be at 30 but my heart is happier than possibly i've ever been...there's a quietness about me i haven't always had...it's from all the change that has happened this year...it's a mix of sobriety and the knowing that as my belly grows so is my life ever changing....

    life is a lot more fragile than i remember it ever being....but yet, i'm not done adventuring....that dream reminded me not to "settle" but always be full of life no matter the simple task i have at hand that day....i was reminded to look at hardship as an opportunity for growth and depth....scars left are just reminders of God's healing power of love in my life....even as God is bringing a child into my life i want to be full of laughter and life so i can give it to my husband and children....i want to live selflessly but watchful and wise with this body and life i've been given....

    i stopped to look at the beautiful sunrise this morning....i used to do that all the time but for some reason haven't lately...i've been to busy...too much on my mind....but isn't it in the simple things God gives that i've always found the greatest pleasure? I'm slowing down to enjoy the smell of the roses in my life....i'm so very blessed....and so very grateful....

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_GAL5BNGao

Monday, 07 December 2009

  • Well, Well, Well....

    Yes, I'm still alive. Life has been quite full to say the least. I hope you can enjoy my insanity. LOL!

    Jer and I had been looking for a house to buy since this past spring and had been talking about it even before that. In one night we looked at 9 houses- we're not exactly the easiest buyers to please. At the end of Sept we finally came down to two houses and the day we went to place a bid on our final choice, I found out I'm pregnant. Truthfully, it was a bit of a shock but a happy one.

    Our bid was accepted and we began the process of closing on the loan as well as packing and keeping up with our regular day jobs. Right smack in the middle of it all my pregnancy fatigue and hormones have given me the ride of my life (to put it lightly). Didn't really struggle with much morning sickness but surpisingly, I suffered with depression at first, that moved into wild mood swings of weepiness and anger over the silliest reasons possible. All things I'm not used to struggling with. Good Lord, I've felt crazy at points. I'm not used to not being in control of my own personal moods and feelings as I believe you can set your own weather but I felt completely uncontrollable and un-consolable. Our loan finally closed at 5:00 in the evening on a Friday, even though we had been told just earlier at 11:00 in the morn, we wouldn't. It was crazy. We had a bunch of friends over on Sunday after church and they (not me cause I'm prego and it's a big NO NO) painted our house. :) We moved in the next evening (with the help of many of those same, incredible friends). My dear friend, Crystal sat me down that night and the next and had me direct her as she unpacked my kitchen, dining room and spare room . What would I have done without her? That Wednesday evening (after moving in on Monday) my sister and her family came to visit (a pre-planned event before we knew we would have the house or not).

    She worried she was overwhelming me but honestly, it made me slow down and relax as I spent a wonderful time with them. It was heaven as she made supper every night and I got loved on by family.

    I was so relieved when I finished my first 3 months of pregnancy (and so was my husband!). True to how it's supposed to go, my hormones calmed down, my energy came back and I began to feel like myself again. Then I got sick and it seemed to bring with it morning sickness. I could hardly sleep at night. Through much prayer, the small amount of drugs I can take as a pregnant woman to relieve pain, and many visits to the porcelein god, I'm over it!

    And that my friends, is why you haven't heard much from me. I would have fallen asleep or puked on you! 

    Jer, the Baby and I, are finally being able to settle into our new home and ever changing lives peacefully.

    The Holidays are here and I'm loving them. Snow is finally falling on the ground and I've been giggling like a school girl over it. My heart is happy with where we are and what is coming. I'm so grateful for life and where God has us. :)

     

     

     

     

     

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  • CrymsonHope
    Seems like this thing is not used but I wanted to leave a comment that was recent! Happy Thanksgiving. I hope all is well its been a while since we have caught up. Love you. Yvette
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    Hey Chica! I've been talking to Yvette about her wedding in Nov. She said that you are wanting to go. I was hoping that a few of us single girls could room togther. I haven't decided 100% yet, but I'm pretty sure that I'll be attending. I just wanted to put a bug in your ear about dates. Since th
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    Hi Issy! Just thought I would check out this chatboard thingy. I hope you're doing well. Love, Liz